Leaving the east coast and our family & friends.
Parting with decor and "things" that have helped to make our house homey.
Deciding what is financially wise to keep or buy again later (like beds).
Keeping my house clean for showings.
Having buyers back out and needing to show it again.
Packing while deciding what to keep in the cars with us... always thinking many steps ahead.
Still needing to homeschool a child.
Still have 2 kids in Middle School with Spring concerts and projects. (Unpacking boxes a couple times looking for materials!)
Keeping up with the laundry.
And kids' messes AFTER doing housework.
You know, normal life stuff on top of it all!
All this to say that I have been very stressed out. For weeks. Well months actually. You know that feeling when you're holding back tears? I feel like that a lot. I've cried more in 2018 than the past decade and if you know me, you know I'm not a huge crier. To help reduce my stress, I've been learning to meditate. The "Calm" app is where I started.
I learned that meditation is not emptying your mind but instead focusing on the immediate here and now. Being present in the moment. With practice, one can become more resilient to stress and that's what I need! It actually retrains your mind to respond in a healthier, stable way. Oh to slow my brain down sounds amazing!
So to add to all that my sister told me about a podcast from The Mindful Mama Mentor that she thought was interesting. After hearing about what she learned, I asked for the link to listen myself. My kids have really seen the worst in me the past couple months and I have a lot of regret about that so love a good parenting podcast. Here's the link:
It was exactly what I needed to hear! It's excellent for parents on a normal day but for me, now, where I am, it was very timely. My kids are still going through their normal selfish growth stuff even as I go through a very stressful time. They aren't going to be magically extra better behaved because Momma is on edge! So my response should be kinder. It shouldn't be one laced with venom as they've been. My big take away from the podcast was so simple that I made a phone screensaver:
|Made by me for iPhone screensaver. |
Feel free to use!
The bible verse that keeps coming to mind is:
Be still and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10
So that's where I am today.
I have to be still. Meditate. Breathe. And be present.
(Oh and pack boxes too! haha!)
Thanks for swinging by,